Always remember you're unique. Just like everyone else.

Yesterday, I actually said, thank god the kid only has an 18th once a year. The looks I received from the family were akin to bemusment and worry. Its all over. Whilst she actually turned 18 during the week, the celebrations weren't until the weekend. The sister K and her boyf flew in on the Friday. I was hoping my mood would improve, it did slightly. All last week, mood swings all over the place. PMT was the main culprit or so I thought. Us Leo's don't like being moody, it doesn't suit our overall we should be out wining, dining and entertaining. After all, we are the best starsign. Etc. The mood has lifted slightly and I have been told to focus on the positive. I think, when I spent some time actually thinking about what the issues might be it came back to the old missing the mother. I'm actually tired of saying it. That and the fact that now the kid is 18, she technically doesn't need me any more. Well, for some things like money, obviously she still does but now she's an adult. It hasn't sunk it. Its like she's done this huge jump
from school to looking for a job, well, we can only hope. She stays over at the boyfriends most weekends. I don't know what to be doing.

Perhaps I should head off to a monastery for a week or so? Shave my head and sing enigma songs? Might be good for the soul. This week is looking very free, so I might take the time to chill out as ordered by Mammy2. According to her, I'm not 'dealing with stuff' and instead I am looking for work to keep my mind off things. Or something. Apart from Riverdance, which I am really excited about, this week there is nothing on. Mammy is gone from tomorrow until Wed to Tori Amos in London. It will be strange to be without her for a night. The kid will probably be around making sure I have something to do, like pick up her boots or tell her to turn the music down or to stop leaving wet towels in the bathroom.

She really enjoyed her party. In typical titch fashion, she thought no-one was going to show up. I was a tad stressed, but once people started arriving she was fine. The mate J was brilliant as always. There were a couple of moments of panic where things weren't organised and we had forgotten stuff or just doing bits and pieces. She was on the case and before you know it, things were sorted. More stress averted. For the moment. But the kid got loads of pressies, a hefty amount towards her tatoo and she said she had fun. Which was the main. I never want to have to organise another party for her. What a month June was and thank feck its over.

One of my work mates got me a meerkat card. Don't ask. They are aware of my slight obession with the wee rodents. Its very cute. I shall take a picture of it and post it up here as soon as I start using Freddie properly. He was very well behaved the other night, had a couple of moments but otherwise I was happy enough with him. Its not to say I will forget about Eddie. Myself and Eddie had some good moments together, but like everything, its time to move on.