Begin Rant...

Every day I feel like we are doing better and then something happens and I feel like we're back to square 1. It is so exhausting. I got wrecked just taking the milk out of the fridge today.

We met with one couseller yesterday from Barnados in relation to the self harm, two more counsellers
today. To quote the great Mister Izzard, we're up to 'ere with cousellers. Today we met with the school counseller and the Vice Principal of the school, who used to be the school counsuller.
I felt the conversation was productive and like everyong else, their main concern is Lisa's mental health. We thought it all was fine, and we arrive home to some band who sounded very angry and in doing so appeared to have a problem with their lyrics.

She was lying sprawled dramatically on the couch as only a teenager can. I felt the tune of Tubular Bells enter my head briefly, but quickly dimissed it as I grabbed the bottle of holy water on the way into the living room. She was intially fine, but I know her better then to let down the defences so quickly. We explained about talking to the counseller about the Home Ec class which was causing all the hassle and how they would move partners for her so she wouldn't be with the one who is haressing her.

Well, there followed a barage of "I HATE THAT CLASS, I AM NOT GOING BACK TO IT, THEY CAN JUST MOVE ME. They won't stop haressing me just cause the vice princpal said they would" in a tone that implied we were visitors from Planet Idiot who were just here for the day.
She went on and on, I stopped listening after the whole "And I'm changing schools after the Junior Cert and that's it" . We had our lunch and left.

Is it any wonder we turn hysterical when she's mentioned. If one more person tells us we're doing great, slaps will be issued. The only time I stop worrying about her is when she's asleep and even then, its not really stopping as sometimes she'll wake up cause she's sick.

Its hard to describe what's its like, even when she's around, its like constantly being on high alert, more so when you're waiting for her to come home and its gone past the time she should be or when you're trying to get to go to bed and she starts channeling someone who sounds like they've smoked 12,3434 cigarettes.

I wonder is there a guide book out there? Guidelines to becoming a parent in 24 hours?

While I'm ranting, if one more person tells us how to parent/discipline her. there will be more slaps issued, obviously with the other arm. Picture it.
She's ran away and we're supposed to ground her for a month, take her phone, take her pocket money, do all of the above? If she was my kid is not a valid reason. I am telling you these things to vent not to ask for what you'd do with her. She's an orphan at 15. She's changed schools 3 times. She's had to move home from the country to the city and from a house to an apartment in the centre of town.

She's bound to have problems, that are not that easily solved by grounding her.
kay? Glad I got that off my chest.

So, latest news. She's at home, dying of the flu, period pain, the black death, the blue plague, bird flu and the ebola virus, we're hoping she'll pull through by Monday.

In the meantime, she'll still be well enough to 'hang' with JockstrapJackie, JumpinJoey, SexyTom, MadMick,CuteCarl, KulchKaren,MunchGrunch,TopHeavy and Slackjaw who apparently have her
back. And even though KulchKaren and JockstrapJackie were both with SexyTom, SexyTom really likes her and wants to 'meet' her somewhere with black flowers and heavy metal music, I kid you not.